November 12, 2018
I found myself stuck one day and uninspired to write. I’ve had a few of those episodes where I couldn’t put any word on paper nor type a single word on my laptop. I had the writer’s block. I never imagined it happening to me because I mostly write out of experiences I’ve had, the things I have observed and the like and that is an everyday thing. I also believe that the Holy Spirit always gives me what to write about and the work that I have produced has been direct inspiration from God, however, my mind was clogged and nothing literally came up. I tried to think about a topic for the next blog but couldn’t because it is always given to me by God. God is never on leave I realised nor does He sleep nor slumber, He is always there and ready to give and inspire us.
I figured I could be the problem but couldn’t figure out where did I go wrong. We always put the blame on God and never do a thorough introspection on ourselves to determine what we are doing wrong, where did we lose the way and what are the things we did before that we are not doing now. It could be a number of things and all of them have to do with us and not necessarily God. We begin on a straight path and then go off track as time goes on. I could feel that I was lost somehow, not praying enough the way I used to, not reading my bible and other spiritual material enough and journaling only once in a while and not everyday like I used to. I was watching television most of the time and sitting at home without doing any spiritual work. Something was amiss in my life and I knew I was following my own agenda instead of the agenda of God. When I am in sync with God, I know it because I flow in my writing and feel confident and when I start think about what to write about then I know that something is off and I have to fix it.
I had to go back to basics and try to discover where did I go wrong. It is a difficult task and our walk with God is not always easy. There are dry times and there are seasons where we reap what we have sowed and most of the time with God, what we haven’t planted. God said to the Israelites in Deuteronomy 6:10-12 “When the Lord your God brings you into the land he swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, to give you—a land with large, flourishing cities you did not build, houses filled with all kinds of good things you did not provide, wells you did not dig, and vineyards and olive groves you did not plant” but the catch was “when you eat and are satisfied, be careful that you do not forget the Lord, who brought you out of Egypt, out of the land of slavery” (Deuteronomy 6:12).
Introspection and awareness are key and always remembering the goodness of the Lord. I was grumpy and complaining a lot, busy with my own things, worried about finances and other things and spending little time with the Lord. You know when you have wondered far away from God, you feel the disconnect not because God has closed His ears but because you have closed yours and the eyes also. You could be thinking too much about the things of the world instead of the things of God; your career, the relationship, the job etc. The bible says “Draw near to God and He will draw near to you” (James 4:8). It further says in Jeremiah 29: 12-13 “Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart”. We have to make the first move because we are the ones who moves away.
God is always waiting patiently for His children to return home. The bible is the story about returning home to God and staying there. David in Psalm 23 says I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever because that is where goodness and mercy reside. If you want to enjoy the goodness and mercy of the Lord then you have to dwell in His house. Jeremiah 29:14 further says “I will be found by you, says the Lord, and I will bring you back from your captivity; I will gather you from all the nations and from all the places where I have driven you, says the Lord, and I will bring you to the place from which I cause you to be carried away captive”. This follows prayer, calling upon and searching for the Lord. God gives easy steps that seem hard to follow because we always desire to do things our own way. Jesus further said “If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you” (John 15:7).
This is the secret of life which is no secret at all as God has given the key already. He says “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light” (Matthew 11:28-30). We need not carry our daily burdens ourselves as Jesus is offering to carry them for us that we may abide in Him. If we keep our eyes focused on Jesus we would never go wrong. We often make excuses; I know I have and as a result suffer the consequences of disobedience. Adam and Eve’s job was to obey the Lord and stay in His glory while tending the garden and disobedience cost them a great deal and the glory departed from them. We need to ask ourselves continually whether we are in the presence of God or not. Being in church doesn’t necessarily mean you are in the presence; the presence may be there but you may not.
You might be thinking about what you will be doing the next day while the preacher is ministering or you could be feeling sleepy, the body is there but the heart completely not. You are the only one who knows the truth about where your thoughts are while you are in the place of worship. These are serious and real truths of what we all go through. I often feel discouraged when it seems like God is far away and out of my reach. My emotions communicate the truth of where I am at every moment, that is, feelings of anger, resentment, jealousy, pride, joy etc. You know where you are emotionally by the way that you feel. If you are constantly feeling “love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control” (Galatians 5:22-23) then you know you are in touch with God. According to the bible against these there are no laws as these are the fruits of the Holy Spirit. There is no law that governs love because love Is. It is the most natural feeling which is giving and all the fruits that follows are wrapped in love. When you are loving you are naturally joyful and peaceful and kind.
The spiritual journey is never ending, it is a daily effort that requires nurturing and constantly checking where you are in your relationship with God. Our lives should consist of continuous repentance from dead works, thoughts and words. We need to purify ourselves in order to hear and walk with the Lord because He is holy. The Israelites in the Old Testament where given strict laws for the atonement of sins before approaching the Holy of Holies. We have also been given the gift of Jesus who has atoned for our sins already and reconnecting is a matter of acknowledgement of what Jesus has done on the cross. John 3:16 says “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life”.
Self-examination is critical in your spiritual walk to determine what is keeping you away from the inspiration that is yours by divine right, the good, the blessings etc. In Luke 12:32 the bible says “Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom”. God has given us everything and it is ours for the taking but we have to live right according to the principles that God has set that we may enjoy the full benefit of His offering. Reconnect with the source of life, God, that you may be fully charged to fulfil your purpose and the assignments that God has bestowed upon you. In this way, you will always be content.
Footnote: Scriptures taken from the The Holy Bible, New King James Version, 1982: Nashville, TN, Thomas Nelson, Inc. & The ESV Global Study Bible®, ESV® Bible, Copyright © 2012 by Crossway. All rights reserved & The Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV®. Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc.™ Used by permission of Zondervan. All rights reserved worldwide. www.zondervan.com The “NIV” and “New International Version” are trademarks registered in the United States Patent and Trademark Office by Biblica, Inc.™
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