February 5, 2018 by Kgalalelo
It is the first Monday of February and it is the first anniversary of my blog. I blogged for the first time on the 1st February 2017. I feel humbled and grateful that I followed through and I never felt tired nor grew weary. God strengthened me every step of the way and inspired me to write every week. I never struggled even a single day to produce content for this blog, it was like rivers of living water welling from my soul. There are many times when I didn’t know what to write about but as soon as I sat at my laptop, the message arose from my spirit and I typed what came through. Every article is the breathe of the Holy Spirit, I never knew the direction He was taking me but He provided every word. I thank the Lord for a great twelve months and greater success this year. There is so much to write about as events and experiences keeps unfolding and I am encouraged on a daily basis to keep moving forward. God is truly a God of miracles and when you pay attention you notice them daily.
So much has happened both good and challenging circumstances in the past year and in all that has occurred, I saw the hand of God and He keeps on increasing me and pushing me forward. I am indeed moving from glory to glory. When the devil throws fiery darts at me, angels carries me, and I have been surprised at how God pulled me through. I can never imagine my life without God because the circumstances of each day are different. When you lose sight of Him, you are likely to fall and at times it is difficult to get up but if you have God, He lifts you up when you are about to tumble down and gives you victory and more blessings. You get up better and stronger than you had fallen. Your plummeting is only a way of granting you more power and strength.
At times, the apparent interruptions and disturbances of your life prepares you for better and bigger things to come.
During the fourth week of January I began praying and declaring that this is the best year of my life, not that it would be so but it already is. I spoke it into being exactly how I want it to be as if all has occurred. I thanked the Lord that I have received everything that I asked for in this year and felt good about it. Everything felt thorough and done. I spoke prosperity in every area of my life and everything was concluded and clear and when I was done I got up and continued with my day.
In the beginning of the last week, I observed that I was mentally exhausted all of a sudden on waking. I had a pulling sensation on the neck; a muscle on the left side of my neck was throbbing but without pain. It was contracting and relaxing over and over again. My mind felt drained and tense but I had to get up, take a shower, and complete my morning chores and go to work. I left home with that condition and my head felt like it was about to explode. I had a lot on my mind too, issues to deal with at work and the car that needed repairs. A month had passed ever since we had a small accident before Christmas and the insurance required the car to be assessed first, a report to be sent through before authorising that I take it to the penal beaters. The process was taking way too long and soon the car needed to go for service. There were only a few kilometres left before that and I had hoped that it would have been repaired first and then go for service. It was out of the motor plan and required a cash injection include excess that had to be paid.
I thought about all these things. I had returned the laptop that I had bought online as it gave me problems and had to wait seven days for a refund. I carried the mental exhaustion throughout the week and I couldn’t focus properly. I couldn’t read nor work for a long period on the computer and made an appointment to visit the doctor by the end of the week. I thought it could be stress and anticipated a similar diagnosis from the doctor. I felt better when I wasn’t doing anything at all. The last time I had such a condition was many years ago when I was still at university. I studied day and night and spent most of my time at the library. I would only get up when my mind began revolting and tensing up and knew I had to take it easy. It was at that time that glasses were prescribed for me but I never wore them that much because my eyesight is perfect. I only needed leisure time for a few days and then recovered.
Now that I recognised what the problem was, I knew I had to relax and give the mind some time but I had too much on my plate and all of them required my urgent attention. I took walks during my lunch breaks at work just to get a breather and it got better until I began concentrating on something again and the mind felt pressurised again and tensed up.
The Wednesday afternoon was a swimming gala at my daughter’s school and she was participating. I was looking forward to the event as I believed it would help me get my mind off things a bit and I was right. The gala began at 17:30 p.m. and all the parents, learners and school staff convened at the school’s swimming pool for the event. Kids who could swim were selected from all levels and so all grades were represented.
The atmosphere was good for me. Some friends came to join me and my husband where we were seated and we absolutely had a great refreshing time. Learners were singing and cheering for their class mates, parents encouraging their kids and everyone had fun. We left at 18:30 p.m. when my daughter was through and since she is still at the foundation phase, they were released to go home soon after swimming and we left all other parents with kids in the intermediate phase and high school as the gala carried on.
The next day was a Thursday and I still felt the same way and at 15:30 I couldn’t take it anymore and needed to lie down. The condition was worsening and I saw the doctor only the following day and she told me that I had neck muscle spasms that was putting pressure on the head and needed to take pain medication and rest and so she booked me off for that afternoon. My cousin called me that day as I had been telling her the whole week about how I felt. She simply said that I needed to see my pastor for prayer as sometimes dark forces fight to get us down when we succeed in life and feel spiritually heightened.
As I was sitting at home thinking about what she had said, I knew that she was right and I received the message in my spirit that the devil is a liar. I had the feeling that my breakthrough was near and the negative forces were hostile as they are opposed to the children of God prospering. The Bible says that “for our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms” (Ephesians 6:12). I knew that I had to push through and receive what God has in store for me, the things that I had declared for myself where coming to pass.
I was on the verge of great manifestations and if we don’t recognise the plot of the enemy we might easily give up and make every sickness a medical problem while it requires spiritual intervention. The Bible further says that “I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten – the great locust and the young locust, the other locusts and the locust swarm. You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, who has dealt wondrously with you; and my people shall never be put to shame (Joel 2:25-26)”.
Even though I didn’t feel better right away, I knew the truth. I had to keep on declaring and praying, trusting and believing that my breakthough was about to come to pass. Everything on earth is there to serve us as children of God. All particles listen as we declare and converge to bring everything into matter. God has never failed me nor is He about to. I believe with all of my heart that God who has brought me this far, will never leave me nor forsake me. The Bible say that “God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?” (Numbers 23:12). I believe and have faith in God because I have seen His hand in my life.
Keep on believing for your breakthrough is near and never give up.
Footnote: Scriptures taken from the The Holy Bible, New King James Version, 1982: Nashville, TN, Thomas Nelson, Inc. &
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